Sick

I don't think anybody actually enjoys being sick, if they do, then they are probably deranged. I mean, I guess there are some nice things, like, you get to take time off work/school, and if you're a kid then everybody feels bad for you, but aside from that, it still sucks. Currently I'm sick, thankfully I think it's just a cold and not the flu, it still sucks though. I'll probably end up missing school tommorow, which I would have been more happy about if I was still in junior high, but since I'm in highschool and have more work, it's really more of a extra detriment. Oh well, I guess I wouldn't have enjoyed it either way since I'm sick. Hopefully I get better soon, I don't wanna deal with this for so much longer. It's interesting how when we're sick, we sometimes paint this picture in our heads of how wonderful and whimsical are life was before we were sick, and how much we wanna go back, even if your life was pretty miserable before you got stick, and now it's just even more miserable.

It's a shame too, I almost went the entire month without missing a single day of school, but now I have to. I hope it's just one day, and I'll be back on tuesday.

My Favourite Bridge

As I said in my first post, I enjoy going on walks, and I have been going on them by myself for these past few months. It's really nice to just be alone, and surrounded by my neighbourhood, and trees, and just feel the fresh air, y'know? One of my favorite spots, that I believe I discovered on my second or third walk, is this a nice little bridge. I've visted it many times, and it just has this really beautiful view of the water, the trees, the sky, and the houses, it's just really beautiful. I've visted it so many times, I've gotten so many different photos at different times, which I have below. It's very calming, and most times I'm alone on the bridge, which is nice. Sometimes I go there to just enjoy the view, other times I just think about the different things in my life, the things that bother me, the things that make me happy. Most of all I think about a girl, which might come to no surprise if you read the last post where I stated I was a 15 year old guy. But yes, even though it is pretty campy, sometimes I do just stand there, and think about her, and lose myself thinking of all the things we could have done together, and how sorry I am, and how stupid I feel for messing it up. Sometimes I wonder if she's ever visted the bridge, I don't know. Maybe if that friendship had a chance at happening, I could have taken her here, and we could have seen the sky and the water together. I hope she doesn't hate me, but I can't know for sure, maybe my insecurity of how I handled things is leading to unrealstic pessimism, and she simply doesn't think about me at all anymore. But I don't know if that's worse or better to me. Because I still think about things very often, and I do think about her. It's been so long though, 7 months since that first day, about 6 since I last spoke to her. I don't think it's very normal for me to still care, infact most people would probably consider it weird. But hey, at least I'm not following her home or trying to listen in to her conversations or stuff like like that. It's a nice bridge, isn't it? with a nice view. I'll be back to it soon, I'm sure of it. Enjoy the photos below, I think the top one might be my favourite, but the ones with the very cloudly sky to have a pretty nice somber melancholic feel to them. I hope you have a good day today, I hope she does too, I really do.

Introduction to my pseudo quasi happy life

 

Love of the s*n

Hello, my name is Lucas Guzman, this is my blog.
If you are here, and plan to stay, you will be hearing about my pseudo-quasi happy existence. If you know me in real life, I implore you not to share this blog, I do not expect much people to be seeing it anyway, but still. If you would like to hear about my boring life, and my boring school, then you're in the right place.

 

I don't read other peoples blogs so I don't really know what they put in the first post, hopefully there is a way to pin this so it's the "introduction". Here are some of my primary interests : Art, video games, going on walks. that's about it, I also do like one other thing, but it's pretty nerdy so I won't list it here, maybe in the future I will mention it.

 

other facts about me :

- I am currently 15 at the time of writing this 

-I attend Father Michael McCaffery High School

-My eyes are brown

-I am 5 foot something, I don't know the specific one, sorry

-I am fairly skinny

-I am white

-I like music, mostly from bands like Weezer, Tally Hall, Nirvana, Green Day.

-Weezer is my favorite band 

-I am a guy 

-I like my watch

-I do not like school

 

These are some real shockers aren't they? I must be so special, teenage guy, doesn't like school, listens to music, likes video games. I am very unique aren't I?.. Do not worry, I am unique in some ways, not in like an autistic way though, I don't have any mental illnesses, or disorders, or conditions, or anything like that.

 

I think that is it for now. I will post again soon, unless I forget about this, then I will never post again. 

 

 I love you ( not in a gay way if you're a guy )